I was devastated and sad in addition to being really scared that I would have to get her to the vet to be cremated. I am really not good with anything dead not even a mouse or bird that I may find outside but I knew I had to do it. So after the initial shock, I carefully got Kitty into a box lined with her blanket and took her to the vet and where I said my final goodbye.
I am still feeling her loss this morning. She would always get excited when I opened the blinds in the morning and immediately demand a pet to start her day. I miss her doing her crazy laps around the kitchen when it was time to eat. I will even miss her hogging my blankets in bed on a cold winters night.
I will never know what caused her death but I am hopeful that the years that she spent with me were happy ones. I know they were for me.
I will miss you Kitty